If i were a boy

yea sorry. i totally wasnt trying to be funny with the Beyonce song.
uhh
yea >__<""
so. today
i was sitting in engin study room.
next to ryan
and
they were playing cards
(cool story amy ==")
anway
i was txting sarah (we'd agreed to meet back in engin study area after class)
but she wasnt there yet
and so i asked her where she was
and then she comes walking into study area and sits down.
and i thought she saw me..
(sorry i'm getting to the punchline soon)
but then she replies to my txt
something along the lines of
"in engin study area.. Come."
and i stand up and turn around and said to her
"wth why'd you txt me?O_o"
and she's like
"OMG.... !! I thought you were a guy!!"
-followed by laughter-
and
"ohhhhhhhhhhh amyyy... you just got owned."
and she proceeds to try and explain
but it was like rubbing salt in my wound man.

qq

seriously.
i'm manly enough as it is.
but noooooooo i just HAD to get a boyish haircut.
damn it.
freaking man jokes TT" they follow me everywhere now.
can't wait till my hair grows out.

_

I'm tired

just.
give me a way out already.
thanks.

no i'm not implying what everyone will assume i'm implying.

you win.
okay?
you fucking win.

If I die young

bury me in satin
Lay me down on a
bed of roses
Sink me in the river
at dawn
Send me away
with the words of a love song



My current on repeat song.
I'm not emo.
i swear
O_o
Listen to it =] it's a nice song.

P.S. Rachel i'm sorry =( I know it's a country song. please don't love me less.

My love affair with nutella

Dear nutella,
I loved you.
What we had together was special.
I still remember all those months you kept me company through the nights.
I still think back to those days. The memories are so sweet.
Leaving you behind was so difficult...
I dont know how i got through our separation.
But I did...
And now i miss you.
but i can't let you back into my life..
I just.... can't!

_

Ocean. ocean. ocean.

is what i tell my dad i'm saying when i repeatedly mutter
"oh shit oh shit oh shit"
and he demands that i stop swearing.

the way the air rushes past me.
the slight dizziness it brings.
i love swinging.

"are you mad? what's wrong?"
"no, nothing"
-leave me alone-

you are the best thing
that's ever been
mine.

it's raining. suddenly.
i waited for it to pour down.
it's like the sky suddenly learnt not to disappoint.

i'm cold.
my fingers.
my feet.
"i'm cold, hold me"
we used to joke.

i miss you
i feel lonely
it's my fault it turned out like this.

it pierced my morning.
anger
it washed over me.

it must have galvanizing material on the outside
right?

I'm sick of pretending.
i'm tired.
yes, you ARE annoying.

 you are the best thing that's ever been mine
repeat.

a fresh wave of
tears.
she whispers:
"it's just a tantrum"

you appal me.
your face appals me.

yea man.
Fucking modern poetry...
this isn't that.
just. By the way.

fragments of my morning.

_