Blogging angst

I wish I remembered what it was like to be honest in my blog posts.
To write in full sentences, to give an account of my day.
I wish I remembered what it was like to give reviews on a book that I liked or a drama that I had watched.
I wish I remembered how to write simply and without pretense or vagueness.
To just say: I was happy today. I did this. This made me day. This person made my day. Just talk about what had happened. What I'd noticed recently. My ideas. My dreams. Things I liked.
It used to be like that.
I'm not sure when I began to change.
Became so... pretentious. Became so lazy. My blog posts became short and vague and silly and shallow.
Maybe my heart's not in it anymore. But really, blogging was one thing that I truly enjoyed, and yet, I just gave it up.
And I keep making all these new blogs to try and start over but they never work.
I don't think a need a 'fresh start' necessarily... I just need to change the way I think, I need to change my attitude.

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