I like sitting together with people and talking, and eating.
it reminds me of family, of warmth.
it reminds me of when my mum still lived in NZ.
it makes me miss her but it also makes me feel a little less lonely.
Both my brother and I are busy so we don't often get to sit down and have dinner together
but when we do, i really enjoy it.
unfortunately.. my brother and i also disagree on many things
we talk, discuss things as we eat and it's nice.. but then more often than not, we end up arguing..
sometimes it's okay..
but someitmes we end up eating in silence.
and then our meal together ends on a bad note
and then he stands up, puts his bowl in the sink and goes into his room.
and then i'm left there, feigning nochalance, continuing to eat in silence.
and i hate it.
maybe that's why i don't like coming home for dinner
even though most of the time i really want to.
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its okay, your friends are your family outside your family.
ReplyDeleteif you don't come home for dinner, does your brother have to eat by himself? :( eating by yourself is such a lonely thing.. imagining my parents eating by themselves always makes me feel sad :( you should try go home and eat more if that's what you want! try swallow the rage if you guys argue. even if it's impossible at first, at least you're doing something.
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