Once again

I've been disappointed by people, by friends.
I'm sick of this.
Maybe if I don't put so much heart into things.
Maybe all I have to do is just lower my expectations.
I know. no expectation, no disappointment right? I say this all the time.
 But again and again I forget and put my faith into something. Maybe I'm just too hopeful in this respect.
Maybe I just expect too much from people.
In the end, I shouldn't inflict my standards on other people.
So I guess it's my own fault.

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Saw this at the supermarket today

Made me lol.

Sigh

sigh
sigh
sigh
sigh
sigh.

fml

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Just like me

They long to be
Close to you.



Hehe I love this song, it's been stuck in my head of late.
I skipped down a short segment of Dominion Rd singing it the other day lolol
I adore the Carpenters. They had such great songs.

Sorry I'm so old ._.

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SO the university website says that you need at least 45 points in each major at stage 3 to graduate.
But fucking student services online obviously DOESN'T REGISTER THAT I'M DOING A DOUBLE MAJOR.
It tells me I need 60 points for stage 3 FTVMS to be able to complete my degree requirements.
AREN'T I LUCKY I DID AN EXTRA PAPER FOR ENGLISH THEN?!
fml.
So now, it won't let me apply for graduation.
Thanks sso and uoa.
you're constantly finding new ways to screw me over
I'm gonna go and try sort this out tomorrow.
But yay I get to have a sleepless night of panic and worry.
fan-fucking-tastic.

sorry for the swearing.

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so pissed off right now I can't even -

I'm sad Valentine's day is over

yea, yea the only person who really wished me a happy valentines day was my mum. and she followed it with "haha"
=.=
but still. I adore Valentine's Day. It's great. There are hearts everywhere in shop windows and flowers on restaurant tables.
There are adorable couple statuses on facebook and cute couple photos.
There are pictures of chocolate, roses, teddy bears.
People are extra thankful for their better half, thankful that they're the lucky ones who are in love.
I think Valentine's Day proves that there are still so many romantic and thoughtful people in this world.
^^
It's sweet. And it makes me happy.
I think it's just the atmosphere? Love is in the air? lol ^^;;
Don't look at me like that.
Just because I'm forever alone doesn't mean I can't appreciate it.

And uhm, thank you for injecting a bit of romance into my Valentine's day. 
It made me smile and made my heart ache a little.
Thank you.

In the spirit of Valentine's day, I was gonna post a poemlikething. I wrote it back when I still had feelings. I barely remember what it was like. Because, as you all know, I'm an octopus now. No blood, no tears. (LOL IDK IT'S JUST THIS THING WE SAY IN TAIWAN TO DESCRIBE COLD AND UNFEELING PEOPLE)
But now that it's no longer Valentine's Day I'm sort of reluctant to post it. Also, I just read it again and I suddenly don't like it.
LOL sorry.

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sulking

zzz...

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Valentine's day is just around the corner!

BEST VALENTINES CARDS EVER
seriously.
lol like omg.
and here's his comic about Valentine's Day
heh I love The Oatmeal

So, like, this year is gonna be my best Valentine's day yet!
So excited.
Got my whole day planned:

Arrive at uni at 8:30, do first exam, be PUT IN ISOLATION cause of exam clash (and i'm not even allowed to have my phone which means no human contact whatsoever), do 2nd exam, come home, COLLAPSE.
Probably wake up at around 8-9pm
crawl into bed and drink wine straight from the bottle and cry.
lol jokes.
it'll go more like this:




[okay i tried to find this picture's source but I can't. So... credits to whoever drew it. I love you. You're fantastic. This is great. Tumblr loves you. I'm sorry I'm using it without your permission. I hope you don't mind.]

lol guys I'm just joking

but it's too late! I posted about valentines day! now it'll be "hmm was amy joking? maybe she's masking her sadness with jokes!" and no matter how hard I try to convince people I don't actually care, they wont believe me.
(see! even now as I say I don't care, it's like I'm JUST SAYING AND FORCING myself to not care! because I actually SECRETLY do!)
I can never seem nonchalant now..
WHY DO YOU WANT TO SEEM NONCHALANT AMY?! IT MUST BE BECAUSE YOU'RE ACTUALLY SAD BUT YOU WANT TO SEEM NOT SAD! STOP TRYING SO HARD AMY!
jeez.
the more I joke about it, the worse it seems. for all you know, I could be crying a river onto my keyboard right now. LOL.
I'm not. seriously.
BUT IT'S LIKE I'M TRYING TOO HARD TO CONVINCE YOU GUYS I'M NOT! THEREFORE I MUST ACTUALLY BE SAD.

God, it's a vicious cycle.

Okay I'ma go and prepare for Valentine's day now..
i.e. study.

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