things pt 2

 I hate how life messes with me. Just constantly.
At the same time I can't help laughing.
It's always just so funny..
sighhhhhhh.
man this sucks.
how do I keep messing up?!
this isn't an angsty post.
Like if I was saying all this irl, I'd be smiling.
but.. y'know.. zzz
oooo so vague. And no. I'm probably not talking about what you think I'm talking about. jeez. stop pretending you know me so well.
or maybe I am. and this is just reverse psychology.
But it was would I be telling you?
Maybe it's a double bluff?
omg.
lol ^^;;;
forgive me. I get carried away.
(you as a general term. as always. =p )

So many birthdays coming up..
And so the stream of 21sts begin!
omg.
gonna be an expensive and sentimental year.
lol. tbh, I want to just be super sentimental and write everyone (and by everyone I mean everyone I share meaningful memories with) nice long birthday cards etc. But we all know i'm not gonna do that... Because, well. it's just no longer appropriate with some people.

something something fragility something something friendship something something sigh something something ididntrealiseimeantsolittle something something sigh something something

not looking forward to taylor swift so much anymore ):
kinda wanna give my ticket away but i spent too much money on it to just give it away.
Also, I really really wanna see her in concert! but ahhhhh! idk.

sigh i am fat ):
I have to stop cooking! But then, I love cooking. It's so much fun.
IKNOW. WHO KNEW I WOULD ONE DAY KNOW HOW TO COOK?
who would've guessed? lol I used to be so fail... i never cooked and therefore didn't eat when I was home alone. and now i cook excessive amounts when i'm bored =.= and eat too much.
sigh. i suppose it's a good thing. but still.
gahhhhh need to lose weight ._.

super obsessed with her atm. omgggg T^T just. omg... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. sigh.

There is a book I have to read by tomorrow and I haven't read much of it oh no what do I do sigh omg it's not exactly boring but still I don't really feel like reading it but I should cause I said this year would be different and I would do all my readings on time but I'm tired already I really want to sleep yea I know I sleep early now it's pretty amazing right haha but I need to read this book what do I do I think the reason I can't seem to make much progress with it is that I've kind of become afraid of silence in the sense that I always have to have music or a clip playing the the background and if I do that then I can't concentrate on the book but then if I turn it off I feel immensely strange and jittery I wonder why what is wrong with me lately how did I obtain this habit I think it was the whole being in NZ alone thing I mean I can't even sleep nowadays without QI playing in the background I love that show it is amazing I love Stephen Fry and Alan Davies and Sean Lock and Bill Bailey and Jo Brand and Jimmy Carr and David Mitchell and  Rob Brydon and just everyone on the show omg but seriously I wish David Mitchell with shave off his beard it just looks so bad.


多少個秋, 多少個冬  我幾乎快要被治癒好...
但還是會只因為一個重複的話題  就  無心自擾
...
你的快樂 我可以感受得到
...
反正你的世界我管不了

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relevant?
damn.

amyxoxo
(bahahahhaha this is how i signed off my msn spaces entries remember?)
 of course not. silly me. most people here have never even seen them.

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