I went to your wedding~~

(i guess no one will get that reference in the title... it's a super old song)
Anyway, I went to a wedding.
I have to admit, I teared up a little. Silly, huh.
idk what did it..
I mean, it was cute. They did the whole slideshow thing and the obligatory parental wellwishing speech.
They walked into the ballroom venue dueting a cute love song.
The bride was super pretty and the groom was kinda cute too.
blah blah.
lol. I'm sorry. That's rude. I shouldn't make light of their special day.
No, I just mean, WHY THE HELL DID I TEAR UP?
Am I one of those crazy emotional spontaneous criers?
Is is that I'm older now and understand the world more? So I feel things more? ugh idk (it is a lot easier to make me cry nowadays.. as opposed to, say, my intermediate and early high shool days)
I didn't even know the bride that well. Or at all. I know her younger sister better. And still, not even that well.
Am I warming to the idea of getting married?! lol.. it's not like i was ever against marriage.. it's just that I was never one of those girls who planned out their wedding in excruciating detail by the time they were 10. I never played brides with sheets as a child.
I was thoroughly perplexed.
Maybe I waws just caught up in the moment of the bride and groom being so adorable together, being so in love and everyone being so happy.
Maybe I just wondered for a split second if i would ever have that happiness and in that split second I decided I wouldn't and I felt sad.
Maybe it's my foreveraloneness tauting me. lololololol
just kidding.
It's not that complicated. Maybe weddings are just touching and love is worth tearing up for.

After the wedding I spent the next 2 days telling my parents I thought i would be alone forever and no one would want to marry me and i wanted them to find me a husband and i wanted to get married now.
they got really really annoyed. and worried.
trololololololololololol
I'm an annoying child.
Maybe I'm like Chandler and my humour is a defense mechanism =P and i'm actually super worried noone will marry me D=

trust me to ruin a wonderful thing.


bwahahahahahahahaha

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