hibernation

guys, i dont know how to say this....
and it may come as a shock to you...
but.
if you don't hear from me for a week, or i seem to have suddenly disappeared...
i'm probably HIBERNATING.
O_o
yea, i know.
hibernation?! (because the world needs more proof of my insanity...)
but seriously.
the symptoms are unmistakeable (not that i'm suggesting hibernation is some sort of disease/illness)
but still.

ONE: i'm TIRED all the time. It's just so much effort to stay awake... I keep dozing off at crazy times like 8pm. I went to be at 10:30 last night (it was a saturday night!! and no it does not suggest that i have no life =="). i dont even have to get up early! I have no reason to be tired.
AND YET I AM.

TWO: i can't stop eating. like, i know people will be like ohh amy's at it again, talking about her eating, saying she's fat blah blah let's ignore her.. BUT SERIOUSLY. i sit at home and i constantly have some sort of food next to me. i just cant stop eating. i dont even know why.
I'M NOT EVEN HUNGRY TT"

so the only conclusion i can draw is that my body is preparing itself for hibernation.
It IS winter afterall...
So, yes.
If i disappear, it's probably what's happened.
and if it does...
please dont invade my dreams and plant ideas in my mind plzthnx.

_

"What's the most resilient parasite?

An idea."
Inception was AMAZING.

EVERYONE should definitely take the time to see this movie. i'm not gonna say more.
i dont wanna ruin it by not doing it justice by trying to describe it. nor do i want to spoil it for anyone.
lol.
it seems like i'm always afraid of ruining amazing things by blogging about them.

hmm.

When i was walking home across the bridge (for the second time because i fail and forgot my keys so i had to go back down to city to get my brother's keys from him) i was thinking about the film which led to thinking about death, i kinda felt a wave of... something... that brought tears to my eyes.
maybe it was just the thought of death.
or maybe...
death as release.
as escape...
or maybe it was the idea of existence.
how... uncertain(?) it is.

which relates to something i was thinking about the other day.

"Something still exists as long as there's someone around to remember it."

                                                          -from Nineteen Minutes by Jodi Picoult

I've remembered this quote since the first time i read the book. I loved it (the quote) and found it seemingly very wise and true.
but now that i think about it...
I guess people are always saying stuff similar to it. i.e. "but he lives on... in my heart" etc. ^^;;;

ANYWAY
i honestly dont know where i'm going with this.
but probably to somewhere dimly lit and not much fun.
funny, i actually related the quote to something positive the other day.
my mind is so easily manipulated.
hmm. maybe that's not a very good thing to say on the internet O_o which is a "public sphere". lol.

sigh. i just failed at sounding thoughful. see! there was a reason i wasnt blogging.... my thoughts arent translating to words very well atm.
oh god. rereading this entry.... it's SO BAD.
but i'm going to end up clicking the orange button that says publish post anyway.

on a completely unrelated and somewhat more positive note:

I baked doraemon cookies! this one was the cutest lol.
i'm kinda proud of them ^^;;
they were a present to Sarah<3, whose birthday was on wednesday.

mmm. time to to go read some chick lit i dug out of the train wreck that is my room. i forgot i even owned this book.
yes i read chick lit.
bite me.

_

Awesomeness.

yea so i'm a bit of a loser... not that this comes as a suprise to anyone..
but
webcomics are awesome =D
CTRL+ALT+DEL <3
yea it's about two guys who sit around and play video games
O_o
but seriously. it's so good. lol... i'm rereading it from the beginning again.... ^^;;;;

now i'm going to give you a link.
click it. i know you dont want to.
but do it. please.
(for the sake of our precious friendship)

http://www.cad-comic.com/cad/20060213




IS THAT NOT AWESOME?!
ehehehehehe......
ahem. sorry ^^;;;;
but you've gotta admit it's pretty cute and original.
and AWESOME O_O
now i'm not saying i'd say yes if someone proposed to me like that....
but. i'm not saying i'd say no either...
xp

please dont judge me.
.......
hmm it's probably already too late for that isnt it.

_

i....i... i'm SO SORRY!

OK. so i can no longer be a proud annoucer or "I HAVE NEVER SEEN TWILIGHT MOVIES"
TT""
i may never ever ever forgive myself for this.
SIGH.
i hope my soul is not permanently scarred.
and i hope rachel can find it in her heart to forgive me.
=(
omg. eclipse. was. so. bad...
argh.
ok. i'm not gonna say more.
but EW ROBERT PATTINSON. EW. EW KIRSTEN STEWART IS A TERRIBLE BELLA.
no more twilight rage. i'll uhh get over it.
maybe.
maybe never ><"
lol.
sorry.
ahem.
i'm calm now....
but not really.
SIGH.
lol...... ><"
i didnt wanna be a bad sport. a killjoy. etc.
i like spending time with friends ^^
so i went.
but.
a part of me shrivelled up and died. during that movie.
OMG.
T__T

i was gonna blog more but i just.... cant anymore...
no... will... to live on.....
......
><"

_

you've got a friend in me~

TOY STORY 3 <3
OMG
I love Disney. and Pixar.
it was (and i'm sorry but i have to say this) a PERFECT ending.
even made me tear up a little. rofl.
no matter what, EVERYONE has to see this movie.
it would, of course be all the more amazing if you'd seen the first two when you were small. but i'm sure it was amazing for all the little kids now too. even if it doesn't have the same sort of resonance.
i'm not gonna say more.
just... watch it.
i'm serious.
WATCH IT.

oh and listen to this song:






as soon as i got home i gave my plushies all huge hugs. haha ^^;;
it made me think about my toys. and the ones that i had thrown or given away.
i hope they're all happy xp

As a kid, these two were my favourite plushies.
the rabbit - i got it after i fell over once and scraped off half my face. haha. my mum got if for me for being a good kid and letting her put medicine on my face.
the panda - my dad got this for me. from Nature's window. that shop in st lukes. haha~ it's actually a puppet. and it's a bit worn now... but it used to look so lifelike..
And no, they didn't really have names. I.. wasn't very good with names. the panda was called Panda and the rabbit was called Rabby. LOL

sorry. any chance to camwhore i guess? xp

-

The Presence of Absence

it sucks.

-

I have nothing to say

and i get lost in the nothingness inside of me..

-Linkin Park <3

haha~ but really. nothing to say.

PHOTOS:

To sum things up:

taking photos of domokun late at night instead of studying

playing with sugar at a cafe instead of studying.

engineering library.

walking through albert park.

not being at uni when i should be.

sarah's body

and

rachel's hand.

ooohhh that last bit sounds dirty

=P

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Yea, i'm just lazy.

A wrote this a few months back. And cause i have nothing interesting to say and am feeling a tiny bit emo... i thought i'd post it.

Hello, goodbye -
A series of meetings.
A wave, a smile -
Distracted greetings.
Fragmented conversation:
a pause, scattered thoughts.
Avoiding confrontation
of the troubles life has brought.
Run away, look back
a flicker of regret.
It's courage that you'll always lack
and fear that you collect.
Life's slow giving,
life's quick taking
"life's worth living"
What's the bet you're staking?

-

To whom it may concern.

I know that facebook is a huge part of your life. And whoever you're facebook stalking must be very very important. I know that those status updates you're reading are life changing and that photo album you've gone through twice is so difficult to understand that you must analyse every photo in great detail over and over. I know that your life depends on being at the top of the score list for bejewelled and that mafia wars dictates your future. I understand that it may ruin your friendship with someone if you don't reply to their wall post straight away. I know that if you don't watch the episode of grey's anatomy that you missed, you'll have a nervous breakdown. And i know that if you dont get to browse trademe or ebay endlessly you'll probably start crying hysterically.

Because i understand, I won't blame you for taking up the computers in the library by playing bejewelled when people need them to do research. I won't get mad that you're using the express work stations to go on facebook when there are 5 people lined up, waiting to print or scan stuff. I won't get annoyed that you're streaming tv shows with the ic zero computers when i have to write an essay.
By all means, TAKE YOUR TIME.

Much love,

the least sarcastic person in the world

things.

So i am, at the moment, very much in love with Oscar Wilde.

too bad he's gay. and not to mention long dead.

he, i believe, is the height of wit.

I LOVE HIM.

in an obsessive english student kinda way. i'm on a mission to read all his writing. but maybe after exams. cause. i'm pretty screwed. just saying.

kk. this entry is gonna be kinda long.
just a warning. please dont go away just cause of that =(

here's a pretty picture to keep you here:

it's a picture of the reflection of the sky tower on another building ^^
it's kinda cool, no? again, better irl.
and no, i am not obsessed with the sky tower ==""
although, it IS pretty. except the days that it lights up with that disgusting yellow colour >=(

slight rage:
ok. i totally get that the university is trying to "make things easier for students" by making facebook pages for classes or departments.
but. uh...
i'm cool with just getting cecil updates. really. there's nothing wrong with sticking to school stuff and not trying to make things more "relatable" and "user friendly" for students. School is school. i'm sure everyone can deal with it.
and it just gets ridiculous when we dont get information because we didnt join the english department facebook page.
WTH.
like... honestly???
that's just stupid. why do they assume that everyone uses facebook? and even if every single student DID have facebook, why would they want to join the department page? why would we want to mingle our lives away from study with study stuff? why would we want to get updates about 'the english journal' that MIGHT START NEXT SEMESTER BUT WE'RE NOT 100% SURE on the page that we're reading about the lives of our friends?
like, honestly. not getting infromation casue it's ONLY posted on facebook....
it's a complete and utter failure on their part, i think.
hmm
i also had another thing to rage about that was related to facebook. but i forgot... ah well. i'm sure no one minds that i dont rage. lol.

yayyyyy picture of the sky. i havent put one up on this blog before. i actually collect pictures of the sky. i think people already know this. hahahaha... ^^;;;

everytime i say "the sky" people think i'm saying "this guy"

Example:

"i have a huge collection of photos of the sky"

"what!?" O_o

"The. sky. not this. guy." (yes because i have a huge collection of photos of this one guy *creepy* )

which leads to my next... thing...

sorry. here's some chinese, i'll translate. well. i'll try my best. even though i have crap skills.

女人 的條件:

條件分很多種但絕對沒有十全十美的女人.... 漂亮的不下廚, 會下廚的不溫柔, 溫柔的美主見, 有主見的沒女人味, 有女人味的會亂花錢, 不會亂花錢的不會打扮, 會打扮的不放心, 放心的... 肯定不能看.

- 偷心大聖 PS 男

Requirements/criteria for being/of a woman:

there are many differrent requirements but there are definitely no perfect women... the pretty ones dont cook, the ones who can cook aren't gentle, the gentle ones are unassertive, the assertive ones lack femininity, the feminine ones spend money recklessly , those who don't spend money recklessly dont know how to dress up, the ones who know how to dress up make you worry/insecure, those who dont make you worry/insecure... are definitely ugly [literally: you can't look at them]

this is from a taiwanese drama. it's a pretty crap drama. but this part made me lol.
that's so mean!! >=(
but there are slightly true aspects to it i guess.... hmmm... haha...
there's a part about guys as well.... i was gonna type it out next entry but i might as well do it now. although i kinda cbf.

男人的條件:

有才華的長的醜, 長的帥的不會賺錢, 會賺錢的不顧家, 顧家的沒出息, 有出息的不浪漫, 浪漫的靠不住, 靠的住的.... 肯定是窩囊廢.

Requirements/criteria for being/of a man:

the talented ones are ugly, the handsome ones dont know how to make money, the ones who know how to make money don't take care of their family, the ones who take care of their family are 'good-for-nothing', those who arent are not romantic, romantic ones can't be relied on, reliable ones... are definitely losers/worthless/useless

the ones for men is kinda not as good as the ones for women.
lol~ these are only for fun though. i dont really think they're true..
it's playing on stereotypes (==" yes yes i state the obvious)
however, the guy in the drama DOES go on to say that any man or woman with over 2 of these requirements are satisfactory (or better i guess) and those with 3 are pretty amazing.
haha~~
this stupid game that we humans play.

anyway, this is long enough. and. i dont know, i kinda pointless? nevermind. it was fun. it took wayyyyyyy too long though.

i shall leave you with Oscar Wilde:

"one must be serious about something if one wants to have any amusement in life"